Giving up the game

Hey, I am giving up the game today. 7 consecutive matches doing extremely bad, too much frustration to handle, also being insulted by most of the community. TRYING to play with F4 Corsairs (3.0), having ONLY negative results, one after another, no matter what I do. Saw on youtube how to do boom and zoom, but can't put into practice. In spite of low level, I am extremely competitive and hard on myself in games, and don't tolerate mistakes. If they happen, will leave the game. Joining a squad is not an option either, because I got heavily mistreated on last one I joined. That is it, bye to all.